I've been visiting my Grandmother in the hospital since she was admitted on Mothers Day. I go to CCU every day to check on her, talk to the doctors and I guess try to perk her up a bit. Being there is hard. I remind myself how much harder it is to be on the other side of that but I still leave and sit in my car and cry before I drive home.
I'm starting to see some regular people in there. I don't think that's a good thing but in a weird way it's a sense of community in our little local hospital. I thought I might find Bill today sitting with his wife, but I must have missed him. He's in there most of the time sitting with her. It's so sweet yet he knows it's not looking good. His eyes start watering when he talks about her.
I'm off for the weekend to shoot two weddings, one of which is in San Diego. Then I have a two day photo event in Laguna. I told my Grandmother that I wouldn't see her much for the next five days and she gets it. I feel bad though, knowing that I am the only family here so she won't have any visitors for awhile. That makes me sad. I think growing old scares me a bit...
Please note that I will return emails and calls upon my return. Thought I'd leave you with a photo from outside of Boston. It's of a marsh that my BFF grew up near and she asked me to take this for her. She wants me to come back and do another in the winter. I miss her too...
Lots of hugs...
(05.17.10 - 07:48 PM)